verbs before nouns

i will be getting into a musical adventure soon. it will be a mixture of every beat i've ever fell in love with. i want to create something amazing.


stay tuned for tunes


oui.

you'll be suprised what you discover

Like wild horses
We run
Fields of the past
Left in the dust behind our feet
Passionate dreams flow through our veins
Our jugulars full of natural ecstasy
A bittersweet taste floods our mouths
As we say goodbye to the old
Hello new,
How are you?
Delight fills our brains
Muscles on our faces form a smile
“No looking back now”, she says
“Our lives are right ahead” as she runs into the light
Holding her hand out, waiting for him to bite
He catches the line
They are forever intertwined

a little somethin for the fall.

"The Ones"

Make amends with all you've bent.
All the ones you stabbed your knife right into with no thought.
"I never meant to.." Do those forgiveness phrases suffice any more?
Trust your fall will be caught. But still, clench your fists in whole-hearted fear until steam is rising from your knuckles, moistening your dry cracked shell.

Oh, Silver Eyes. lonely looks near and far forever.
giving you all away, I will only keep myself. I'll make amends with them all.
Alone at last! The lack of pride in my 5 inch heel stride is just for you.
Slow down girl, your eyes are rolling back into your head!
..and all I can see is a nightmare of you.
crusading into the black sea, all you have to do is shake my head back right and there you will find me. A nice trip I had. I'm never going back again.

cut the ties

I feel as if I try to reach out to people, make friends with them, and get nothing in return. since when did "want to hangout?" "i miss you!" "we should do something soon." become creepy instead of kind? I guess "caring is creepy" as the shins say. everyone is just a dickbag and/or social climber as far as i'm concerned. it's simple really, if you don't want to be friends with me don't bother talking to me because then you're wasting your time as well as mine. why talk to someone you don't like? why talk about someone behind their back and say horrible things then talk to them like you're great friends?



be gone.
get out.
stay away.

well

life is good. i've been pretty happy the last few weeks. not sure what happened, i guess something just clicked in my brain that theres really never a reason to let anything get you down. just go with the flow. i'm trying to plan ahead a little bit this time, grow up some more. day by day would probably suit me better but, sometimes you gotta do what you gotta do. really, i have everything i could ever want/need. but i wouldn't mind a few new pairs of shorts for spring/summer time. get a part-time job already.


goodnight/goodmorning

wonderful: the bottle says it all

so good, and so good for you.

last couple days have been tiring, and rough. this helped me out a little bit. helped out my taste buds and headache at least! i suggest you try it, and every other pom flavor. i should write to the company so i can get some coupons, one 16 oz. bottle is $5 :( although, it is a small price to pay for tangerine anti-oxidant heaven! enough about a drink.











and just a cute picture of me and my booberry.

STRESS

How do you become unstressed/unworried? i need some cures. honestly i don't really have anything to be stressed over..yet i feel like it's occuring.

just within my reach

scared to death. everything seems to be coming at me so quickly. this time around, i cannot be my own worst enemy because that is the only factor that's ever contributed to bringing me down. even if i feel i can't do something, or if i try i'll fail. i will keep on, keepin' on. as they say. this is a new thing for me. it used to be second nature to give up when things get hard but no one will get anywhere in life if they have this mind-set.

i have my mind-set. to continue, and be continuing forever.

"Consult not your fears but your hopes and your dreams. Think not about your frustrations, but about your unfulfilled potential. Concern yourself not with what you tried and failed in, but with what it is still possible for you to do."


on a lighter note:

i want to purchase a fisheye lomo camera by the time summer rolls around. just taking shots here and there. i have a regular holga and want to learn how to use it better, as well. i've had it for about 2 years and only really got in to using it when i went to florida a year ago then it ceased. mayyybe because i HATE having to manually rewind the film with my hands. such an annoying process, really. (ironic how what i was talking about all the way above relates to the fisheye picture. that's what i want to be able to do with life. make beats.)

rupert

should be sent to a mental institution, i've never encountered such an annoying, crazy, pouncing, maniac kitten like him before. he's so kitten-like. a little tttooo kitten-like.

first

day of classes. surprisingly more excited than nervous.



yesterday i caught myself 3 times in a row from falling off the top of the subway stairs. almost fell, almost fell, almost fell, finally catch my balance. with a little help from apollos coat, and some random man. why in the hell wooouuuuld you put a 3 inch ledge at the top of the steps, and whyyy was i wearing heels on the day this fate occured? oh well, knew it would happen eventually. i just didn't think this soon. my life is funny. anyways, watch out for the (i think it was 16th) 16th and union sq. subway stairs.

this album

taking over my ears. "milk crisis" is my favorite.

tomorrow i start school, 9 months straight of classes. only about 2 random days off. i will survive. will i survive?
logos & pathos, i guess.